Seriously?! Wow!

People these days are so ungrateful. They helped you when no one wanted to and you’re gonna pay them back with rudeness and refuse to acknowledge all the good things they’ve done for you. I hope your conscience let you sleep at night.

Do you really have to make me feel like I’m bothering you? If you don’t want to talk, then tell me. I hate wasting credit on people who don’t even appreciate my efforts.

3.09 am (GMT)

Soo… I have to study all these and familiarise with it by 13.45 today. I need to start praying to all the saints if I want to pass TT_____TT

さよなら私の恋

This is going to be the last post about my feelings for you. I don’t want to wait or expect anything, because I’m just going to get hurt even more. I knew from the very beginning that we can’t be together, yet I could not help but fall.

Now I feel really stupid. I wish I could take back everything and return everything to the way they were before. Everyone has been here before, people told me not to pay attention to your sweet gestures. I wish I listened, I probably would not be this hurt. It sucks!

I’m still up -.- I’ve been trying to finish this course work but for some reason, I have not been able to! Eurgh!!!

I spent hundreds on these books because they were recommended by the university. They are meant to help me get through these bloody courseworks and understand things. Unfortunately none of these helped me -.-

Point taken! You’re better than me, happy?! -___- You are so annoying -____-

Some people are just too much. I wish they’d know how much words can hurt someone. I’m just gonna sleep it off, hopefully when I wake up everything’s gonna be okay again.

I’m upset. It’s my fault anyway, I can’t really blame people for being defensive, because if I were them and I was the one who heard those words, I’d probably react the same way. I guess honesty is not really the best policy.

I could not help but stare as you smiled at me. You are not good looking (in my opinion) yet that smile of yours is able to make my heart skip a beat. I don’t want to fall in love with you. I really don’t, but no matter how much I deny it, I can’t fool myself. I have already fallen.

Fate is really playful. I believe in fate to some certain extent, when it comes to love, destiny intervenes a lot! Actually, I’m just looking for something to blame because I don’t want to accept the fact that I have fallen for you. It is so frustrating! Yes! Loving you is really frustrating because I cannot find a single reason as to why I have fallen when you’re not even my type! You ruined everything! Some of my actions are even unjustifiable.

My words won’t even come out right whenever you talk to me. I hate looking like a fool in front of anyone, especially on front of you, and whenever I make a fool of my self, I try to cover it by acting cute but I don’t think that it works because you would just laugh every single time! And you don’t even like me.

I’m not even close to your ideal girl. I’m short, I’m definitely not skinny (not even sexy), I’m average in terms of looks, I don’t pay attention to fashion, and you don’t look at me the way you look at other girls. If I were pretty, then I guess you would consider looking at me. Unfortunately I’m not.

This silliness needs to stop.